blessed

I have been doing morning devotions with my husband lately. I had no idea how much of a difference it would make. I love how much closer I feel to him after just a short amount of time.

I am home today instead of in class. Girls didn't have school so one of us had to stay home. This mornings devotions were about putting others first. I am trying to serve by doing things I know Jake doesn't like to do.

It feels great to do things for my family and my husband. It also feels great to have an organized house!!

"You do not realize now what I am doing but, later you will understand" - John 13:7

Awareness

I have "legally" been able to call myself an adult for almost 12 years now. I was on my own well honestly from about 13 years old. I was an office manager by the time I was 19 and a real estate agent at 20. I have been a mother and a wife for roughly 9 years and it wasn't until recently that I could say I grew up.



I was sweeping the floor the other day and the fact that I have grown up really struck me. It isn't that I hadn't begun the process of growing up or that I am finished with it. I think we all have some growing up to do and that in some aspects should never stop. I realized it has nothing to do with age or with attitude but with my relationship with God.



I used to think that I was okay with whatever God had planned for me. That was only true however if what He had planned coincided with what I had planned as well. If I didn't agree with where or what God wanted for me I would just tell myself that misinterpreted what He really wanted.



I am at a place in my walk with God right now that I truly am okay with what He has planned for me. I know He has a plan and I know that it doesn't matter what the world throws at me His plan cannot be thwarted. I have lost more than most people have owned. A big house, 14 acres, motorcycle, cars, truck, and so much more. However, I am more at peace at this point in my life than I have ever been before.